Shina Sawhney

People who watch ball know, as soon as some players get angry they start going off. For instance, if you hit Paul Pierce, Kobe Bryant, or Ray Allen with a flagrant foul or play overly aggressive with them, if they get angry, its a wrap. They will start hitting back to back 3’s/jumpers/dunks just to rub it in the opposing teams face. They will drop a all-time career high points in a game when pissed. They will carry their team to a W. We dont have to be basketball players to master the same concept. The concept is : channeling your anger for a positive outcome. I notice too many times that once people get angry or feel as though they are being pushed, they give up. They never get a chance to go home with that W. Channeling negative emotions to give you a positive outcome is hard, but it takes practice. All that frustration your feeling, the anger, and the hurt can be put to good use. Use those emotions as your drive and motivation to succeed. Stop letting other people defeat you with their bullshit! The other team isnt there to see you win just as these people testing you are NOT here to see you win. And i know it isnt easy. The easy way out may seem better.Truthfully, it is, but only for temporary relief. Having it ‘made’ in the long run comes with overcoming the struggles of today. So you decide, will you be one of the hall of fame-ers or will you go sit on the bench everytime you are asked to be challenged…The greatest players faced their adversities, not ran from them.

Everyone wants to change something around them in way or another. They want to paint their room, but cant get off their lazy ass to do it. They want better grades but are not diligent enough to study for them. They want to have money but never learn how to budget. They want a better relationship but never leave the poor one they are in. The want to lose weight but never pick up a dumbbell. See, change on the outside does not come unless there is change on the inside. Nothing about your situation will change unless certain parts of your mannerisms, behaviors and personalty are willing to change as well. But i know its hard. Once we are comfortable in our placements and positions, we tend to only daydream about change. We set ourselves back by thinking of these changes and nothing more than “daydreams”. We make them seem unobtainable, and they truly truly are not. If you want your life to go better, its in no one’s hands but yours my dear. I read in an article that if you do something everyday for 25 days, it becomes a habit. So take it one day at a time, and before you know it the 25 days will become a year, and what you wanted to change has happened right before your eyes.

Remember…

“If you always do, what you always did
You will ALWAYS get, what you ALWAYS got…” 

With Love,

Sheen.

Who are you?

Aside from the things you own. Who are you?

Aside from a human being called _______. Who are you?

Aside from acting how everyone wants you to act. How would you really act?

If you let other people and material possessions define ‘you’. You will die never knowing who your really were. 

I want to see the raw you. The you before people told you how to act. The you before the fly gear gave you self esteem. The you that was genuine. The you that had no poison injected into your brain by society. Take me back to that person. Everything you are now is corporate made. I want the you that had no chemicals or preservatives added. Take me there and let me sit in your arms. The pure version of you is the only version i am willing to love.

-Sheen.

A ‘female’ is just the simple anatomy of 2 ‘x’ chromosomes in a cell nuclei.

But a woman, a woman is something totally new. See, a woman is still a female, but shes the more evolved version. A woman knows when to nurture you and when to correct you. A woman knows how to love you, and how to get you to love yourself. A woman is there for you even when you think you don’t need her to be. A woman knows how your day went, just by the look on your face. A woman knows every little action you do, before you do it. See a woman, a good woman, is something and someone that is filled with love, education and grace. A woman may not know everything in the ‘books’, but she WILL get you out of your poor situation the best way she knows how. A woman may not know everything, but shell find a way to make what she does know, work. A woman will put food on your plate before she puts food in her own mouth. See, i dont want to be a female. A female is just a creature that was born, and never evolved other than body growth. A female has no clue as to the world around her, she only knows and cares for herself. A female, no matter how old she is, is just a mere blob that lives on this earth. Every female has the chance to grow to be a woman, its just up to her.

“‘Cause I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That’s me. ” - Maya Angelou

Secrets are rare. We are in the era where either we post everything online, or go tell someone through another sort of technology. Aside from all that, at least ONE trusted source knows that one deep dark secret about us. (best friend, parent, sibling, etc) But i wonder how many REAL secrets there are. The secrets that were never ever uttered and those secrets went to the grave with someone so they will NEVER EVER be known. Those are the real secrets…the real secrets lie with the dead people.

I had to figure this out the hard way - praying for what you want vs. what God wants for you is 2 TOTALLY different things. Most of us pray asking for things, and there is nothing wrong with that. (to an extent, that SHOULD NOT be the only reason you pray) The issue comes in, when we pray for ONLY the things WE want. See, as human beings our tendency’s to judge what we want in people are based off what society wants us to judge them upon. Stuff like- how beautiful are they on the outside, what kind of are car do they drive, how they dress, can they take us out to the finest restaurants, can they support us financially more than they can morally. We use those type of judgments to help decide what we want and then we go ask God for all the wrong things. I ask God to give me whatever HE has for me. That way i know its from him, I’m meant to have it, it will fulfill me, and more importantly, ITS NOT FROM THE DEVIL! See, the devil knows E X A C T L Y what you want, so of course when you get it, you will be thrown for a loop. Youll get SUPER caught up in whatever it is you asked for because the devil has this way or wrapping his presents for you in glittery gold, with a big bow on it, and those are the types of material things most humans have a lust for. and in a short period of time..we see.. that present from the devil is one of the biggest disasters we have EVER COME ACROSS. Then we all sit stuck asking God “why did this happen to me” “was this meant for me” “why would you give me something so good just for it to go wrong” “Why me God ?!” and most people never learn that it was never God who gave them that ‘present’ , it was themselves. They blame God for all their wrong doings. It was the fact that they prayed for ONE PRESENT, or that ONE THING, or that ONE PERSON and the DEVIL delivered, not God. How many time have you seen, done or heard someone praying for a new car, and as soon as they get it they cant make payments on it. How many time have you seen someone ask God to bring that ONE PERSON back into their lives - just for them to go through hell with that person ALL OVER AGAIN. How many times have you seen some girl get married to a guy with lots of money, who can take care of her only financially, but not love her, hold her, morally support her. etc. I see it too many times. In no way am I asking you to Pray the way i do, we all have our own ways and i respect everyone else for doing things their way - all im saying is if you Pray - Remeber who your praying to and what your praying for…Cause you might just get EXACTLY what you wanted..and that in the end, may be the LAST thing you wanted.

Much love,

Sheen.

Im beyond tired of just being precieved as ‘another pretty face with a cute body.’ Other women are proud of that, thats all they strive for, and to each her own but thats not me. Im tired of meaningless conversations with people who think that i know nothing beyond makeup, hair, and shoes. I love being beautiful but it doesnt come from my face, it comes from my grace and intellect. I can sit for hours and talk to people about history, politics, travelling, religion, etc. I don’t JUST do all my learning in school, i read books that aren’t required, i watch the history channel because thats what appeals to me more than ‘Jersey Shore’ But i never get the chance to speak on it. Its always some guy trying to holla at me with the same whack lines i heard 20 times that day or some female asking me about how i do my hair/makeup. What REALLY gets under my skin about this i make sure i do everything i can to speak well by structuring my sentences immaculately , and speaking about content topics, yet all i come up with is these idiotic conversations… It just has come to the point where i dont feed into any of that, i dont try anymore. When people try to holla or talk nonsense i just disregard it. & truthfully people think Im just a stuck up bitch because of it - but thats fine. If they would rather formulate opinion about me without knowing me, those  opinion arent cogent anyway. All of this is just the Shina Way of saying..i really dont care about your hair, your shoes, your car, your income, i just care about what goes through your brain, mind and more importantly your heart…and i wish people would show me that same respect.

Much Love,

Sheen.

Egypt has fought through President Mubarak’s 30-year reign of what i like to call ‘WHACK ASS SHIT’ and through the revolution they have gotten him to step down as President. The abuse, the dictatorship, its all at an end. Im beyond happy for them, the Egyptian people deserved it! As do ALL HUMAN BEINGS! Much love, peace, and happiness to the people out there! 

Its true.

We as human being are always thinking about what we have to do, what we did, or what we are planning to do.No one ever sits and appriciates that one moment. That little period of time..where you are just on your high horse, where every little thing doesnt matter, you can feel the tingles through your bones and your ‘heart’ literallty feels like its jumping..your just happy.happy.happy. Total bliss. Better then chocolate bliss.  We should have that type of happiness all the time but we train ourselves not to feel like that. We do that because we are scared to feel that much happiness at once without thinking that something bad is about to happen. I hate having that feeling of amazingness and then someone shooting it down…with their doubts..with their plans…with their own agenda. Its robs us of what we so rarely feel. Imagine not having enough food to nourish your body and the minute you get some, someone robs you of it. How would you feel? After all that hunger, weakness and thirst..the minute you get it, someone just takes it and they probably had a full course meal before they took your food. Thats what happened with our happiness. We go through periods of time just feeling like shit, after a rough breakup, after a bad hair day, when we think we look fat in our outfits….just no happiness is anything we know or see then when we finally get some happiness, we allow people to fuck it up for us so easily because we listen to them. & thats a real issue. We make it so easy for them to rob us. We need better defense. 

Happiness is free, and doesn’t take a lot of energy to obtain…so why are we not taking advantage of this.?